Well, it was so hard to have fixed my handle name as neko
to try to embed my very personal opinions inside the
reasonable streams of what is pretended to be quite logical.
Then, for the purpose to claim my statements as well as my
manifestations to the mathematical public including non-
experts, I was sometimes obliged to be completely foolish
and also to be a kind of very emotional animal. Therefore,
it happened to be quite psychologically difficult in many
cases. However, on the way to do so, I've got so many
informations concerning how people had felt with my past,
together with the general feelings against research activities
and the environments in those major institutions inside and
outside Japan. Then those responses of the people gave me a
lot of informations about the present difficulties of the
academic communities together with the cause of those which
seem to be a kind of hopeless situations since long time ago.

Since I've decided to be outside Japan long time ago trying
to keep my mathematical activities, what I have seen is that
my decision was not wrong. At the very beginning, what I've
intended is just to collect some basic informations, but I
started to clarify some of the problems of my own, just on the
way to do this. Now, I think I've got some reasonable ideas
from which I hope myself to start my next project which I hope
to be successful that nobody knows if it works.

I'm very much afraid that some of you had already noticed what
I'm thinking about.

Thank you.